Cecking In

Hi friends. Sorry it has been a while since I have updated the blog. We have been so busy lately. Here is what we have been up too.

Feeling Helpless

Sorry I haven't updated my blog lately. I have been extremely busy settling in and cleaning. The other day was probably the hardest moment of many to come and well lets just say grab some tissues. 

I was busy fixing lunch in the kitchen when my mom called me. I went in the other room to talk to her for a second and when I came back I heard my grandma talking to my grandpa as if something was wrong. I walked in and I saw my grandpa sitting in his chair with tears streaming down his face. My grandma walked out of the room and I went over to Pops in his chair and leaned over to ask him if he was okay. As the words okay came out of my mouth he grabbed me to bring me in closer and just sobbed on my chest. I was practally sitting on his lap as if I was 5 again and holding him asking him what was wrong. He said, "I feel helpless".

Let me back up a little bit here and tell you about Pops. He is a very wealthy and knowledgeable business man and affection doesn't show much. About the past 10-15 years it has shown more and more but I haven't ever seen him really cry. He has always been a very strong and unemotional personal. To be honest I thought crying was never possible. Seeing a 6ft, 81 year old man sitting in his chair sobbing was absolutely heart breaking but the hardest thing was hearing him say that he feels helpless. 

He has always been the provider, rock and the go to man. Getting older I know takes a toll on your mind and body and with him he isn't as quick with numbers like he use to be and he is a bit more forgetful. As a man I know that it is hard to admit that you need help. So I can see why he is feeling helpless. Admitting you need help is always the hardest. I of course told him that he wasn't and that I am here because I love him and I want to help him but that he is far from helpless.

Tears steaming down my face and holding my grandpa as my sweatshirt was soaked with his salty tears was heart breaking. Kissing his sweet little bald head and reassuring him that he wasn't helpless I had to walk away. I had to go into the bedroom and regroup. I couldn't let him see me cry as I was trying to be strong. But why should I worry about being strong when a man in my eyes has always been strong is sobbing like a baby in his chair? I think maybe seeing him cry like that for the first time made me realize what I was here for.

Tender moments like this make me so grateful that Bryan and I are here. I am so happy that we are able to do this. We wouldn't want it any other way and we know that we will be blessed for it.

Please come back and visit. 

XO {ST}

Taking a Break

Holy Mother!!!!!!!!!! I forgot how much I HATE moving. I have over 12 bruises and pretty much been up since Thursday (for the love) so sleep and relaxation is much needed. So today we decided to take a break from everything and take Nella to the Marina and hang out. 

The San Leandro Marina is a beautiful spot to start your day or just to get away from it all. You'll enjoy the ocean breeze and the beautiful view of the bay. It is such a delicious site to witness. There is a mile loop that has exercise stations and benches all around the water. Not to mention a doggy park for little and large doggies. It's not only a park or field or body of water, but it's vast and there's so many parts to it.

It is seriously such a gem. I cannot believe it's free to enjoy it. There are so many cute squirrels everywhere and a ton of CRAZY geese. They can be menacing and once practically dive-bombed us!. The air is so fresh and there are parks for kids and places to BBQ. You can see the San Francisco skyline in it's glory, and on a hot day there is still a great breeze to cool you down.

Nella really loved swimming and playing in the water. We lost track of time and was there for almost 3 hours. If you are ever in San Leandro please stop by the Marina. I promise you will not regret it.

XO {ST}

We Have Arrived

Well we finally made it and our new adventure is now starting. For those of you that don't know what I am talking about, my husband and I have the privilege to move in with my grandparents and help them out. They are still mobile and able to do things on their own, but they are in their 80's and driving, doctors appointments, house cleaning and cooking is getting harder for them. Let me tell you watching them grow older has been hard for me. I am extremely close with my grandparents and thinking that one day they won't be here anymore is a bit devastating to think about. And life gets so crazy busy and I don't always pick up the phone like I should to call and check in. Since my husband and I have no ties in Lodi we were so happy to be doing this. I was planning on leaving my job anyways since I no longer needed to work and my husband just turned in his two weeks to be closer.

So our new home is in San Leandro, CA and I couldn't be happier. I am so thankful that I get to spend every minute with them, building more memories, laughing, playing games and have deep conversations with them. I wouldn't change this opportunity for anything. And them being open to help is a big deal and means more to me than you could even imagine. I know it isn't going to all sunshine and flowers but that is okay. I am ready for this and seeing their faces when we pulled up confirmed that this is where we are suppose to be. 

Please come back to see all the adventures we will have and what's going on in my life.

XO {ST}